an opportunity

I do NOT have cancer! Thank you God!

I do have several large-sized fibroids in my uterine wall. I am feeling a mix of emotions at the moment, mostly relief, but also a little confusion and concern. I am going to allow myself some time to process.

I acknowledge that this may sound odd, but when my first brother died, I remember often wishing that he had just "almost died" so that I and others could have received the learning and gifts available when confronted with a deep loss, but without having to experience the loss. In reality, we probably wouldn't have learned the lessons without the pain of his death.

In my present situation, I desire to use this opportunity of a significantly gentler nudge than cancer to make healthy, positive changes in my thoughts/thinking and in how I value myself. I am grateful for this opportunity.