feel the power

I’m embarrassed to admit it, but I enjoy reality TV. Although “reality” is arguably a misnomer for these shows, I am intrigued and hooked by the opportunity to observe human choices, emotions and behavior in process. 

I was deeply moved last night witnessing the transformation in Lee DeWyze on American Idol. At the start of the season, Lee seemed to be the most nervous and insecure contestant. Last night, in his eyes, in his body language and demeanor, and in his energy, Lee was present in his authentic power; he embodied his passion and gifts, and he was in the flow of manifesting his dreams into reality. His belief in himself was tangible, as was his gratitude. Lee felt his greatness to the core. To witness and experience such a profound and beautiful energetic shift in another, enriches me. I celebrate him, and I am grateful for the reminder that it is possible for each and every one of us to embrace our inherent gifts, allowing us to evolve into our own unique greatness.

Last night, I had two dreams that related to my future without kids at home. Both dreams were full of anxiety, doubt in myself, and excuses to not start anew based on my age, lack of energy and excitement, and the sheer difficulty of setting out in a new direction.

My intent and focus is to create work/play that enhances me and others. I have begun to visualize what my new path may look like. But I also know that the fuel for creation is our feelings. It is blatantly clear from my dreams that my feelings at this moment are seeded in fear: the limitations of resistance, doubt and excuses. Not only am I without fuel, but I have a broken engine!

Thank you Lee DeWyze for role modeling a journey from insecurity to empowerment. I intend to bring super-fuel power feelings to my new phase of life.